I'm not that old, really I'm not, I'm only 53 but I've totally lost what little mind I've ever had! Here's the story.  I've always loved the outdoors... I started showing horses when I was 10, moved on to some other things, now I've rediscovered riding an ATV!  I'm having a complete and total Blast!  It isn't safe to ride in the mountains alone so I've hooked up with some new friends (I knew some of them already when they were SMALL KIDS IN SCHOOL!) and we have been riding together now EVERY weekend for months.  I'll ride anywhere from 30 to 80 miles a day with them. And I don't do to bad either.... I keep up with them really well, seeing as how they are all MEN in their early to mid 30's!!!  They have never had to stop and wait on me to catch up.  My husband of 15 years is now on all sorts of meds for various health issues.  We have not been intimate for going on 2 years.  So taking something to help him can not be done. For the most part that hasn't bothered me.  But in the last few weeks that part of my body is screaming for attention!  And I've grown very fond of one of the "guys".  To fond in fact.  I know that I'm 18 years his senior... he's 35, but in my mind I've already committed adultry.   I know it's wrong... I know that.  I'm a married woman for petes sake!   But I'm also human, and what I wouldn't give to have an hour..... just one hour of attention from him.   It's not like I'm wanting to rob the cradle or anything, we are both adults.  We spend a lot of time talking while on the trails... and after riding talking on IM... up into the wee hours of the morning.   He's so easy to talk to... yet at the same time I try to talk to my husband and it is very strained.    I don't want to call my marriage quits... I hope that it is just a hump that we need to get over.  AND I know that it would kill him to know that I was even thinking about this other man.   Would somebody smack some common sense into me!   Please!